Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton
Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton
Today 2/10 makes 2 years since the initial pain. 2 years, 730 days of uncertain and unwarranted pain.
I remember talking to my nephew while standing in the self-checkout line at Walmart when my calf muscles started burning. I thought I needed new shoes. I remember taking my shoes off to try and ease the pain. It didn’t work. By the time we reached our destination the majority of my body had locked up leaving me unable to move. I remember being terrified because this was a pain I had never felt before.
Fast forward 730 days and I’m in bed with tears in my eyes from more pain I’ve not felt before. I’ve been up since 3am. I initially thought it was a crick in my neck from sleeping wrong. The right side of my neck/shoulder has been tight for a few days. At 2 am I felt myself trying to stretch between my shoulder blades and readjust. At 3am I woke up screaming from a pulling burning pain that felt like it was gripping my flesh and nerves and pulling them away from my bones. The pain is sitting in the middle of my shoulders and radiating up my neck to the back of my head. There’s so much pressure I can barely see. It’s also across both shoulders.
I am also nursing an injured knee. So my right knee hurts and my left leg and Achilles stays tight. Not to mention my rib cage, lower back and hips 🤷🏾♀️😂. I was using crutches but that made my underarms hurt and nope!!! I need something to feel ok lol. My walk is ugly and slow BUT I’m walking.
I cut Pandora on to help me get moving. I needed some praise music. I needed to be in His presence. I could feel the enemy starting to remind me of failures and negative thoughts “it’s been 2 years. He hasn’t healed you. You’re going to be in pain forever”. I quickly cut the music up. Y’all the playlist for the first few songs was:
As I was crossing the bridge I could hear “just drive on off. It’s gotta be better than feeling like this”. I started screaming His name! I needed Him. “Keep me God” “Keep my mind, heal my body, Come see about me God”. I screamed all the way to the gas station. Then on the radio I heard:
I’m sure there are more but I can’t remember.
“Despite calamity He still has a plan for me and it’s working for my good”
Hello F4 Tribe!!!!
Fibromyalgia is diagnosed by general pain all over and pain in 18 (9 pairs) pressure points as indicated by red dots.
I rarely have pain in all of them. Thank God!! Recently I have had pain in 6/9 of them (black circles). In addition I had nerve related pain across my upper back, muscle spasms in my right upper back, pain the the center of my hands and feet, burning in my hip that radiates fire down to my thigh, pain in my tail bone and fire in my legs. The extra pain is circled in blue. The days have been hard but I managed to work and have a partial social life and go to church!!! I am pretty proud of myself. I feel like a tin man. Everything is tight and hurts.
Ok so I fell asleep last night before I posted. This morning has not started off awesome physically but I am making it. I know people are praying for me and that is keeping me going today. I am trying to keep my mind busy and maybe it wont realize I am in pain. It’s not working yet but hey i’m hopeful lol. Today I really don’t feel good or even ok.
Last was great! We had an amazing Zumba class. It always does my soul good to be around the women in my class. There is so much love and support in that one room. It’s so refreshing!!!
I forgot my shoes so I had to wear my converse. I wasn’t elated but thought….. I see other instructors teach in them so it’ll be fine! I got this, I’ll be fine! I mean my feet were already hurting so it couldn’t really get worse. It didn’t! I made it! Now I was tired and won’t ever wear those again but…. I made it! Heading home I was almost in tears thinking about walking Cade 🐶. A friend came and walked him for me. 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾 I am so thankful for the people in my life!
It’s 4am and I’ve been up for awhile due to radiating pain in my thighs, calf’s and feet. The bones in my feet feel like they’re breaking AND IM STILL LAYING DOWN!!!! I am dreading getting up.
Self-check/transparent moment: I am noticing I am developing a fear or some type of anxiety when I think about moving or facing the pain. Hmm, I’m use to the go getter mindset! What is this? Adding this to my prayer journal. Gotta figure it out and squash that! IMMEDIATELY! God has not given me a spirit of fear BUT the Lord has given me power, love and a sound mind!!! Devil I see you 👀. Get that mess out of here!! (2 Timothy 1:7)
And we’re back! Ok let me get up and walk the dog and get ready for work! I got this!!!
I haven’t moved yet… 20 min later
“Ok on the count of 3 I’m getting up and just doing it”
Today has been long and hard and I’m going to bed.
OMG IT IS 60+ degrees and the sun is out!! I feel so amazing! So adventurous! So ready for anything! So I feel so alive!!! I rested about 3 hours, slept for 2 last night but magically I feel good! Well better lol. Good, I’m not sure I remember what that feels like🤷🏾♀️. I have so much to do today but I can get it all done and be back in bed by 5pm!
Ready. Set. Let’s do this……
Today was so great! I did make myself rest a few hours just because when I feel good I start feeling like superwoman then the next day I feel it in every fiber of my being. But I went to the batting cages tonight! And went 2 rounds!!!!!! I haven’t done that in years. Ahhhhh it’s been such a good day. I’m laying across my bed just reminiscing over all of the events of the day. I’m so blessed!! I pray it is pretty out tomorrow as well 🙏🏾
Happy Sunday people!!!!! This morning I started off my day with a prayer to heal a friend and within a few hours they were feeling better. I know that God is NOT a respecter of persons so I know that my healing is coming!! Complete restoration of every moment I lost hurting, joy for every tear I cried, rest for every night I laid awake and movement!!!! I will move freely and fluidly again without the concern of pain. And most of all I will share how God healed my body and those problems I USE to have I DONT HAVE ANYMORE!! “But your condition is chronic and there is no cure”. That’s what man says BUT God, My GOD says:
“For I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the Lord; because they called thee an Outcast, saying, This is Zion, whom no man seeketh after.”
Jeremiah 30:17 KJV
“No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord.”
Isaiah 54:17 KJV
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”
Jeremiah 29:11 KJV
I pray your week is amazing!! Talk to me. What scripture keeps you going? What quote helps you when you’re down?
HEYYYYYY F4 Tribe!!! Geez how I have missed you. So before I get started let me say I have so many drafted post that I will post soon but I wanted to talk to you guys ASAP. With that being said, of course my fingers are not wanting to co-operate at them moment but I promised a lady that I would post soon. Today is soon!!
Welcome to the brand new year!!! So we are all used to hearing “New year, new me” but I am the same me in this new year.
So what does this mean for me? Glad you asked! This has got to be the year I turn myself up! I expect more from me. More focus on my goals, more initiative go accomplish my goals. More focus on being who God wants me to be and turning up my fitness level to get more healthy! I’m turning up the volume on my life!
So how will I do this? Meal prep, cardio, weights and Zumba class.
Well….. so I started writing this post 2 weeks ago. Things have changed since then. I was getting in the habit of running and class and working (walking) and well to make a long story short my body hated it! As a matter of fact God send me two, YES TWO messages through two women of God! One while I was preparing to pass out from the pain. I have been feeling more faint lately but have only actually passed out once. Crazy how your body can just say “hey, this is too much. BRB”. The WOG (woman of God) text me and then called me. I know it was God because of the things she said. She wouldn’t have known that. Then that Sunday I made myself go to church and my WOG came and prayed for me because I was tugging at her spirit. Talking about a blow to my spirit and mental state!! I have not ran since then. I am watching what
I eat but not like I should. I really have to be more cautious of what I put in my body.
My current state of mind: exhausted, stressed and unable to remain focused.
My current health: Fibro is back. Which is sad because other than a few random not great days, I have been feeling pretty good. The past 2 weeks have been not so great. The past week my vision has been very blurry, pain has increased, all day stiffness, lower back pain has been at a steady 8/10, I’ve been in a constant state of nausea. But I have been able to keep food down the last few days so woop woop! Chewing has been hard and my face hurts. I kind of feel like someone punched me in the eye a few times.
School: starting up again in March. I have enjoyed this brief break!!
Fitness classes: I have dropped down to teaching two classes a week and that is really all my body can take right now. It saddens me but I have to accept this is where I am right now.
Medical: I was take Celebrex but gained a lot of weight really fast and it made my legs feel heavy. Make no mistake when the pain becomes awful (by my standards) I will take one. As many of you know my rheumatologist/ pain specialist was found guilty of inappropriate conduct of over 20 women…….ugh! He knew he was guilty and could have said something. He left a lot of people stranded. Anyway I have been without a doctor since October. Well, I finally got in to see one! My appointment is at the end of February, Praise God!!! He is suppose to be really good with fibro and offers things such as water therapy, pain therapy, needling and of course the shots! I never thought I would miss those horrible shots but Lawd Jezus shoot me up!! I am sleeping more but feeling less rested. I’m not sure why? My multi-vitamins and spark by Advocare (which I love) is NOT working.
Work: equals stress and motivation to keep going to school and have my own! That is all!
Life: overall my life is amazing!! I am learning more about me daily! Becoming closer with God, my family and friends. I’m forming healthy relationships and letting go of toxic ones. My classes are full of loyal ladies and I am told weekly how awesome I am at what I do (flips hair..I know right). HaHa. Seriously, I still love what I do. I am elated at watching myself grow and I love the me I am becoming!!
The Turn Up: Honestly ya’ll, I don’t even know. Where to begin or what to do. So I am just praying. I do know that
“he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake”
– Psalm 23:3 NIV
Before I go I do want to share one of the messages God gave me this week. As I was riding to work fighting back the tears, because ya’ll know how I feel about myself crying, God said “Don’t be afraid to be the lamb because you’ve got a lion behind you”! YALLLLLLLLLLL!!! If you didn’t catch that let me break it down for you. I am the lamb. The weaker more meek and smaller animal. God is the ferocious, handle all things, king of the jungle, strong and mighty lion. I am getting happy typing it! So what I took from that is that it’s ok for me to be weaker, for me to cry and not be mighty because baby I have The almighty, all knowing, healing, waymaking, turning it around, restoring, mind clearing, peace giving and body healing God behind me!!!! OHHHHH He is so good!!!!
Hey guys!!! Last Tuesday I began writing a post to talk about how well I have been feeling lately! The good things that are happening. How my friends and family are doing. I just wanted to share something positive with you guys because I feel like I’m always complaining and that doesn’t describe me adequately. If you know me you know I try and not complain.
However, Wednesday hit and fibro came back with a vengeance. I’m talking mental, emotional and physical! Like a tornado of crap hit all at once. Needless to say I am going to postpone posting that blog because I want to feel the joy I felt writing it when I post it.
Sooooooo……. since Wednesday I have probably gotten 10 hours of sleep. Yeah it sucks!!!! I feel the cycle starting and the enemy attacking. I said earlier ” I can be strong but it’s like he’s always attacking. Waiting on an opening. He’s gnawing at the bone waiting for it to break off” but as the Bible says the devil roams the earth seeking whom he may devour. BUT I serve a God who also never sleeps or stops working!!!!! Where I am weak He is strong. And this week if it was based on my own accord then I know the devil would have won BUT OHHHHHH to be kept by God!!!
———insert praise break———-
So fast forward to yesterday. My legs have been aching at the bone and my neck has been feeling tired like I just can’t hold it up. Of course I do!! My lower back aches and the inside of my hip bone burns and the bursitis is back. I’ve never felt this before. Oh and my teeth/gum pain is back.
I make it through the breast cancer walk, visit my friend in the hospital and head to bed lol. I slept about an hour then it was time for church this morning.
I woke up feeling like “why should I go” “I’m in so much pain” “No one will even notice” “I’m too tired” “I just want to quit”. Now if the first few thoughts weren’t enough to make you see that the devil was attacking my mind then look at the last one!!!!! Seriously!??? Just that fast I thought about “not being here”. I knew then I was going to church!!! What’s the reasoning? Why waste time going to church when you can have church at home? Well because sometimes the battle is too big and you need to support of your army! Think about it….even the greatest soldier goes to war with his batoon! I know what some of you may be thinking “you said God was all you need”. Well you’re right! I did!!! And He thought enough of me to give me a family who Knows Him, believes in and seeks after Him!!! Church, the right church, is a place where the broken can go and be made whole. The right church doesn’t judge you but they accept you, love and encourage you right where you are!!!! I love my church!!!!
I digress. So I get there and the worship service was for me!!!!! I had to hang my head an ugly cry! Listen to the songs:
I believe by James Fortune and FYA
I believe the storm will soon be over.
I believe the rain will go away
I believe it’s already done
See yourself out of the storm. The clouds will move. It’s time to smile again!
this blessing is pre-approved!
I believe that my God is a healer and I believe that I will survive!
I believe that God is able.
It’s already done!
I believe God’s going to do it.
He’s going to do it for you!
It’s Done by Anita Wilson
What I shall be I already am.
My eyes may not see it. By faith I believe it.
God is working it out on my behalf.
It’s already done.
Talking about crying!!!! I was CRYYYYY-ing!
Now I’m sitting in church with my hip burning from the outside in. Causing my body to shake and my teeth are aching. Seriously 🤷🏾♀️ So I tuned in harder. If the devil is trying this hard then there must be something I need to hear!
Then I went for prayer at alter call. How did my Pastors wife know what was happening??? I didn’t tell her. Anyway she prayed them my pastor prayed! He has the gift of healing.
Talking about being rejuvenated!!
Now yes I am still in severe pain. Yes I am uncomfortable but still smiling. I KNOW I WILL make it!!!!
I am ready to fight this week. Yeah it’s a war BUT I’m showing up and I’m ready to fight!!!
Now here is what I haven’t been doing that I usually do:
1. Didn’t pay my tithe (for those of you who know how important this is I could truly stop there). Paid it today!!!
2. Haven’t spent time with my boo (God) so I don’t feel as close to Him as I have been. Funny how that works.
3. I’ve eaten horribly and my water intake is still drastically lacking
4. No sleep #TeamNoSleep (people post that like it’s cool. I don’t want to be that cool) #TeamImSleepy
Hopefully I sleep tonight!
5. Lack of me time
I will make an effort to change these things this week!
Things to pray for this week:
1. My healing: mentally, physically, financially and emotionally
2. My bible study friends lung collapsed and she’s in the hospital
3. My cousins mom who is starting dialysis soon
4. My mom as she prepares to head out of town
5. My dads health. He never speaks about it but I know he has joint issues as well
6. My friend who has inflamed intestines
7. My friends mom who is awaiting her results to see if she has cancer. And my friend who is her support system while he is dealing with life’s ups and downs
8. My sister
9. My friend who has been dealing with a migraine for a week now
10. All of those who suffer from chronic illnesses and their support system
I pray for each of you reading this post. That God will bind up any affliction that you may be faced with. That He heals you and gives you peace. That He provides clarity on things you can’t see clearly and that you feel His presence with you as you face this week. I pray you know you are not alone in whatever you have going on. I pray He gives you strength to continue to endure until He delivers you!! Trouble does not last always. Joy comes on the mourning! Cry!!! Cry hard!!! Joy is coming!!! Lord we trust you! We worship and adore you. We know that you are Lord and we call you that! You are mighty and sooo good to us. We thank you for making away when we can’t see one. Lord I ask you to continue to guide us as hold our hands as we each travel on our journey this week. Thank you for what you’ve done and what you’re going to do. In Jesus name I pray. Amen!!!
Hello F4 Tribe!!!
How are you all? I feel like you should updated on your lives too.
Let’s just dive right in!
In the last post I was having sever nausea, my gums ached and my teeth felt like they were coming out. Well all of these problems are still here 🤷🏾♀️ but I did go to the doctor!
Even though I was not feeling my best I taught my fitness class tonight….bad idea. I was ok, well I was making it, until the next to the last song. I hit a squat and I felt a rip that seemed to go across my bum. Jesus!!! I pushed through class and made it home. While in bed, not sleeping, I realized my butt has not hurt me since the last shot. At that moment I knew I was getting another injection! My thoughts were
I have no time to be down. I already can’t eat. My body keeps having random shake downs where I feel like it’s trying to shut down. AND one of my besties is getting engaged Wednesday in Birmingham….. I have to be there. And I mean just really I want some popcorn with cheese or some chicken or anything!!! Yep I’m calling the doctor
I limped into work and made the call. Surprisingly they had an opening @2:20 that afternoon! Now do you remember me talking about how incredibly long it takes at this dr???? Hours on top of hours!!! So instead of me taking off I just went when I got off @3:40. I still waited til 6 to be seen. Yes that’s 4hrs from my appt time!
Let’s get down to the nitty gritty!
I told the dr what my symptoms were…again. Why do we have to tell the person that makes the appointments, the vitals nurse, the nurse that comes in to say “he’ll be right with you” and THEN the doctor! Geez! Seems like there should be a better system or at least sticky notes!!! Anyway I digress…
1. Face feels like it’s caving in at random times. Both sides. Above and below eyes.
2. All of my teeth feel like they may come out. Jaw is locking up.
3. Severe burning/ripping pain across my butt.
4. Bursas on hips are back
5. Cyst on wrist that’s keeping me from making a fist
6. Stomach issues. Feeling full/ bloated all the time. Very gassy. Not being able to eat or drink a full protein shake.
7. Tramadol has become aversive. It last way longer than 8hours although the pain comes back around hour 3. Then I’m left feeling yuck until it wears off.
8. I’ve slept 3 hours and 46 minutes in 3 days
So after discussing each in depth here is what we decided:
1. He had me take a deep breath in through my nose. It sounded clear to me. He said it’s allergies 🤷🏾♀️ I don’t agree!
2. I can do an all liquid diet for 10 days or get cortisone injections….. IN MY FACE!!
3/4. Bursitis is back. Cortisone shots or rest for 2 weeks
5. Wear a brace… No! I’m not doing that
6. He thinks it’s Irritable Bowel Syndrome. And I have irritated my upper intestines but I feel like it irritated me! Take stool softener and it should go away….. we shall see
7. He prescribed what’s about the only drug left without me being admitted to the hospital… Percocet. I’m not taking that!!
8. He prescribed another sleep med… probably not taking that either!
I did remind him that I have come off of everything except naproxen when the pain is unbearable. It’s not working but hey whatever! Stay focused!! I also let him know I would take the prescriptions but was 80% sure I would not be taking them. I don’t want that crap in my body! He said he understood and gave me the scripts. Who cares about killing trees 🌲?
Here’s the educational slash gross part. If you are squeamish this is where you stop reading!!! 🛑 🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑
So I received 4 cortisone shots varying in dosage and needle size. Two in my TMJ and two in the bursas close to my sciatic nerve.
What is Cortisone:
A type of medication that treats a wide variety of conditions, mainly by suppressing inflammation. Shots of cortisone are used to treat a range of conditions, including bursitis, gout, acne cysts and nodules, tendonitis, and different types of arthritis.
What is TMJ:
Temporomandibular joint (TMJ) syndrome is a disorder of the jaw muscles and nerves caused by injury or inflammation to the temporomandibular joint. The temporomandibular joint is the connection between the jawbone and the skull. The injured or inflamed temporomandibular joint leads to pain with chewing, clicking, crackling, and popping of the jaw; swelling on the sides of the face; nerve inflammation; headaches, including migraines; tooth grinding (bruxism); Eustachian tube dysfunction; and sometimes dislocation of the temporomandibular joint. Temporomandibular joint syndrome is also known as temporomandibular joint disorder.
The sciatic nerve is the longest nerve in your body. … The most distinctive sign of sciatica is pain that radiates from your lower back into the back or side or your legs. It can range from a mild ache to sharp, severe pain. You can also get numbness, tingling, and weakness in your leg or foot.
Jaw: liquid diet for 10 days or soft food
Butt: relax for 4-5 days
Both will be sore and still hurt until possibly the weekend.
I took off of work today so I can relax. I’ve been in bed all day. Tonight I am going to Birmingham for a close friends surprise engagement. I’m a little nervous about the drive because I’m not feeling well.
The engagement was amazing! Seeing her face was priceless and so worth the drive. I’m at home in the bed. I have to return to work tomorrow.
Today has been the longest roughest day I have had. I am tired and my body is too. I was supposed to take pictures for a flyer but it rained and that was all! I cancelled my fitness class tonight too. Even though my mind is ready my body just isn’t up for it. It’s 8pm and I’m in the bed. Thank God I made it through the day.
It’s Friday and today I can open my mouth a little when I talk. Doesn’t look weird anymore!!! I’m sitting on a heating pad all day at work. It’s cold in my building and it’s rainy outside….. my body feels like it’s going to explode! And I’m nauseated. So as of right now I feel exactly like I did before I went to the doctor. But I am hopeful that this will pass. Today I am going to try and get my pictures done for the flyer. That is all I have planned.
All should be relaxing. I pray nothing comes up.
“We set our hopes on you, we set our hopes on the one who is the everlasting God. You are the everlasting God”.
– William Murphy
This week has been a struggle. On Monday my mouth began to hurt very bad. It feels like all of my teeth are going to fall out If I open my mouth and talk or eat. My jaw has been locking up on and off. Now imagine trying to “get rid” of stuff with a locked jaw. Now whatever you imagined multiply it by 5. Yep!!!! Yuck!!!!
Today makes day 3 of not being able to eat. When I can it comes back up or I have severe stomach cramps that make it hard to sit straight up. For my teeth I’ve been using extreme strength sensodyne. I brush with it and rub it on my gums. For my stomach I’ve been eating tums like candy and drinking ginger ale. I am able to drink half a protein shake or water without to much pressure/cramping in my stomach. I have been up since 3am. I woke up with the above song on my mind.
The last few days have been really hard on my body. I think it’s because I haven’t been able to rest. However, this week I have gone to bed as soon as I get off from work. I have managed to work and teach two classes. I’m really not even sure how except BUT God!!!
Yalll I’m so hungry!!!! Do I eat and feel sick or not eat and feel sick and hungry????? I make the decision to eat but I know it’s going to be bad lol….And it has been every time🤷🏾♀️. Between my teeth and jaws hurting and my stomach cramping it has been crazy. Stress has been pretty low because I’m not really talking to anyone.
I did find out I made a B in my summer class. I’m kind of devastated but I am trying to stay calm because my body was doing all kinds of things this summer.
I called my rheumatologist and he’s closed today. I’m debating on going to the doc in the box or just waiting it out. I’m really not sure what to do.
Pray for me and whatever this is it goes away as quick as it came. I have a lot to do but this weekend is actually free. To bed I go!!!!!
“Please Lord give me strength. I’m just trying to make it through”
-I understand by Smokie Norfolk
It doesn’t cost a thing to smile and you don’t have to pay to laugh. Er better thank God for that. -India Arie
Hello F4 Tribe!!!!
Soooo much has happened since I last blogged. I I’ll try to catch you up
So my body has held up well. There has been 2 panic attacks, 2 shut downs and only a few not so awesome/unmanageable days, that I managed of course lol.
blurred to loss of vision, nausea/vomiting and constant leg and feet pain. Fatigue body and lungs😂! Y’all sometimes walking has me so exhausted and breathing heavy I have to take a break😂😂. The knot on my wrist is back and bigger. It makes my right hand a little “flappy”.
On the bad days I push through. On the awful days I lay down. On the good days I rejoice!
Still off of all prescribed meds. Pain is an weekday occurrence and sometimes gets pretty awful. I’m not taking anything heavier than naproxen 500 and ibuprofen 800. I usually take about 1,800 mg day. I’m sure this is too much but🤷🏾♀️ right now it’s what I have. I researched and I can take up to 3200mg daily,
1-Lots of stress was coming from my job and my ex and internally not dealing with my emotions.
2- There were devils sent to destroy me and they weren’t red and slimy
3- I need God more than ever!! My relationship with God was pulling me closer.
4- Some people come into your life for only a season and after that season they need to exit. Not necessarily because of a disagreement but because their season is over.
5- I am enough just the way I am. I will continue working to be the woman I am supposed to be. Until then I’m removing all excess from my life!!
1- Birthday (33) Great day
2- family trip- interesting but amazing!!! White water rafting
3- stopped going to the office so much. Anxiety decreased drastically!
4- person who I had a friendship with in the past got engaged and mentioned nothing to me. He is mentioned in a previous post. Found out on IG along with thousands of others. His response was no time….. yes I read it on IG🤷🏾♀️ Its crazy how a person can cause the same emotion twice without even being aware. I’m elated that he has found happiness. I also see I need to change the value of our friendship. I clearly think more of him than he does of me.
5- blocked several people from my social media accounts and from my life!!! Not everyone deserves access.
6- 4th Cancerversary!!!! The tea is this weekend!! So excited!
7- actually had a conversation with my ex. Shared how I felt. We don’t see eye to eye but maybe he won’t do the same to the next girl.
8- started working on my mental state!!
9- Cade got sick. He has hookworms 😕😢. He was taken to the vet and is feeling better. He ate up a couch cushion last night! 1
12- started preparing for my business!!
13- went to my friends gender reveal
14- had an amazing “Teal Tea” to celebrate my 4th year being cancer free!!!! It was soooo amazing to be surrounded by so many friends and family!!! To hear some of the things they think of m really touched my heart. My sister even said something…. twice!!!!! She never talks in public! My besties and goddaughters were there! Y’all my mom worked sooo hard to help me do this event!!! I am so beyond thankful for my superwoman!!!! I was up from 4am until 12am and moving around! My body is exhausted!! But I am now done and ready for the holiday! I am resting all day long.
1- spend more time with me! Loving on me and getting to know me. Take my self out at least 1 time a week. Learn to enjoy me. Learn to be ok in this single time of my life.
2- spend more time with God. Strengthen my prayer life. I want to be on fire for God.
3- let go of people in my life who have at any point, that I wasn’t enough. Or have proven that they aren’t a friend to me. I have a tendency to hold on to people. Even people who have intentionally harmed me! I find a way to forgive them and when doing that I allow them to stay in my life. But I never forget that feeling they caused me. So now I pray that as I begin to break away from these bonds that God sustains me in their absence.
4- work on being a good steward of my time, finances and mental space.
5- learn to say no!
Songs: This is my favorite part
Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 3:13-14 NIV
“Anxiety weighs down the heart, but a kind word cheers it up.”
Proverbs 12:25 NIV
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,”
Ephesians 3:20 NIV
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
Matthew 6:34 NIV
“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:7 NIV
“I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt to be your God. I am the Lord your God.”
Numbers 15:41 NIV
I will/He will be with you. Never leave or forsake you!
Joshua 1:5, Deuteronomy 31:6 &31:8
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Jeremiah 29:11 NIV