One of those Days

Monday

Well today I feel everything from the weekend lol! I’m not shocked but geez Louise! I am having shooting pains in my neck and back. But on a positive note my lower back isn’t as bad and t pain in my butt cheeks is almost gone๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿพ.

I taught class tonight ….. I admit I shouldn’t have ๐Ÿ˜ฉ I drank a spark before class and felt like super woman. Then after class on the way home all of my powers left. I had a panic attack while driving and almost ran off the road but I was really close to my house so I just went on home. It started with shortness of breath and feeling extra hot. It wasn’t bad and didn’t last long. It did irritate my neck more but hey a little rest and I think I’ll be fine! Good night all

Tuesday

Well I’m not fine I was wrong๐Ÿคท๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ I went to work then came home and went back to bed. It’s @6:15pm and I’m moving around a bit. I’m wearing a neck brace around the house and to bed to try and let those muscles in my upper back and neck rest. My sister said this was her best birthday and that makes all of this worth it. I’m going back to bed to rest.

Wednesday

Today has been ok at times and others I have to fight to hold back the tears. I went to work and have been in bed since. I finally got up around 4:15 and went to the jacuzzi to let my body soak in warm water. It was broke ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ so I stretched in the pool. It was nice and my body needed to stretch. I made it home and gave Cade a bath because he stunk soooo bad. At this point my scalp started burning. I put my head under the cold water but that didn’t help. I felt like the water couldn’t get to me. I took out my faux locs and dunked my head again. Still not much relief but I was not missing church! I quickly showered and went to church. I made it the parking lot and couldn’t hardly breathe. I grabbed my emergency pills and took them to help with panic attack. The pain also hit under my ribs when I inhaled and all throughout my body when I exhaled. I fought tears and went back home.

“Sometimes I feel like giving up

Sometimes my best just ain’t good enough”

Today is on of those days when life’s got me down. I have so many things to be grateful for and it could be a lot worse. I know I should just be ok…. but today I’m not. Today I’m tired of being not well! I’m tired of everything hurting. I’m tired of gaining weight no matter how bard I work to lose it. I’m tired of my skin burning and I do not like this texture my hair is right now and ITS COMING OUT!!! Really??!? My curls have changed and my hair is shedding very bad all over and I have a bald spot. Today I feel like a cross between Eeyore and Mrs. Sophia “I was feeling bad, I was feeling mighty low. Then I seent you Mrs.Celie and I knowd it was a God”

You can laugh! It’s good for the soul. If it didn’t hurt I would. I have class tonight but I think I’m going to just go on to bed.

Prayer Request:

1- Cole- the college student who was hit by a car while standing on the side of the road on a college trip) is heading to a rehab place in Georgia!!!! He is getting better! Please pray for a smooth transition for him and his body and the family!

2- A family member of mine has been diagnosed with FMS. I am praying that her body will be restored quickly and all the symptoms will just disappear. I pray for her strength and peace of mind

3- My parents peace of mind

4- A dear friend of mine has been dealing with vomiting, diarrhea and bloody stool. After going for testing they think something may be going on with the colon.

5- All of you guys reading this. I pray restoration over your health, finances and spirit. The devil CAN NOT have you or anyone or thing associated with you. In Jesus Name! Amen

6- healing for me: mentally, physically and emotionally

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