HEYYYYYY F4 Tribe!!! Geez how I have missed you. So before I get started let me say I have so many drafted post that I will post soon but I wanted to talk to you guys ASAP. With that being said, of course my fingers are not wanting to co-operate at them moment but I promised a lady that I would post soon. Today is soon!!
Welcome to the brand new year!!! So we are all used to hearing “New year, new me” but I am the same me in this new year.
So what does this mean for me? Glad you asked! This has got to be the year I turn myself up! I expect more from me. More focus on my goals, more initiative go accomplish my goals. More focus on being who God wants me to be and turning up my fitness level to get more healthy! I’m turning up the volume on my life!
So how will I do this? Meal prep, cardio, weights and Zumba class.
Well….. so I started writing this post 2 weeks ago. Things have changed since then. I was getting in the habit of running and class and working (walking) and well to make a long story short my body hated it! As a matter of fact God send me two, YES TWO messages through two women of God! One while I was preparing to pass out from the pain. I have been feeling more faint lately but have only actually passed out once. Crazy how your body can just say “hey, this is too much. BRB”. The WOG (woman of God) text me and then called me. I know it was God because of the things she said. She wouldn’t have known that. Then that Sunday I made myself go to church and my WOG came and prayed for me because I was tugging at her spirit. Talking about a blow to my spirit and mental state!! I have not ran since then. I am watching what
I eat but not like I should. I really have to be more cautious of what I put in my body.
My current state of mind: exhausted, stressed and unable to remain focused.
My current health: Fibro is back. Which is sad because other than a few random not great days, I have been feeling pretty good. The past 2 weeks have been not so great. The past week my vision has been very blurry, pain has increased, all day stiffness, lower back pain has been at a steady 8/10, I’ve been in a constant state of nausea. But I have been able to keep food down the last few days so woop woop! Chewing has been hard and my face hurts. I kind of feel like someone punched me in the eye a few times.
School: starting up again in March. I have enjoyed this brief break!!
Fitness classes: I have dropped down to teaching two classes a week and that is really all my body can take right now. It saddens me but I have to accept this is where I am right now.
Medical: I was take Celebrex but gained a lot of weight really fast and it made my legs feel heavy. Make no mistake when the pain becomes awful (by my standards) I will take one. As many of you know my rheumatologist/ pain specialist was found guilty of inappropriate conduct of over 20 women…….ugh! He knew he was guilty and could have said something. He left a lot of people stranded. Anyway I have been without a doctor since October. Well, I finally got in to see one! My appointment is at the end of February, Praise God!!! He is suppose to be really good with fibro and offers things such as water therapy, pain therapy, needling and of course the shots! I never thought I would miss those horrible shots but Lawd Jezus shoot me up!! I am sleeping more but feeling less rested. I’m not sure why? My multi-vitamins and spark by Advocare (which I love) is NOT working.
Work: equals stress and motivation to keep going to school and have my own! That is all!
Life: overall my life is amazing!! I am learning more about me daily! Becoming closer with God, my family and friends. I’m forming healthy relationships and letting go of toxic ones. My classes are full of loyal ladies and I am told weekly how awesome I am at what I do (flips hair..I know right). HaHa. Seriously, I still love what I do. I am elated at watching myself grow and I love the me I am becoming!!
The Turn Up: Honestly ya’ll, I don’t even know. Where to begin or what to do. So I am just praying. I do know that
“he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake”
– Psalm 23:3 NIV
Before I go I do want to share one of the messages God gave me this week. As I was riding to work fighting back the tears, because ya’ll know how I feel about myself crying, God said “Don’t be afraid to be the lamb because you’ve got a lion behind you”! YALLLLLLLLLLL!!! If you didn’t catch that let me break it down for you. I am the lamb. The weaker more meek and smaller animal. God is the ferocious, handle all things, king of the jungle, strong and mighty lion. I am getting happy typing it! So what I took from that is that it’s ok for me to be weaker, for me to cry and not be mighty because baby I have The almighty, all knowing, healing, waymaking, turning it around, restoring, mind clearing, peace giving and body healing God behind me!!!! OHHHHH He is so good!!!!