The Year of the Turn Up

HEYYYYYY F4 Tribe!!! Geez how I have missed you. So before I get started let me say I have so many drafted post that I will post soon but I wanted to talk to you guys ASAP. With that being said, of course my fingers are not wanting to co-operate at them moment but I promised a lady that I would post soon. Today is soon!!

Welcome to the brand new year!!! So we are all used to hearing “New year, new me” but I am the same me in this new year.

So what does this mean for me? Glad you asked! This has got to be the year I turn myself up! I expect more from me. More focus on my goals, more initiative go accomplish my goals. More focus on being who God wants me to be and turning up my fitness level to get more healthy! I’m turning up the volume on my life!

So how will I do this? Meal prep, cardio, weights and Zumba class.

Well….. so I started writing this post 2 weeks ago. Things have changed since then. I was getting in the habit of running and class and working (walking) and well to make a long story short my body hated it! As a matter of fact God send me two, YES TWO messages through two women of God! One while I was preparing to pass out from the pain. I have been feeling more faint lately but have only actually passed out once. Crazy how your body can just say “hey, this is too much. BRB”. The WOG (woman of God) text me and then called me. I know it was God because of the things she said. She wouldn’t have known that. Then that Sunday I made myself go to church and my WOG came and prayed for me because I was tugging at her spirit. Talking about a blow to my spirit and mental state!! I have not ran since then. I am watching what
I eat but not like I should. I really have to be more cautious of what I put in my body.

Update:

My current state of mind: exhausted, stressed and unable to remain focused.

My current health: Fibro is back. Which is sad because other than a few random not great days, I have been feeling pretty good. The past 2 weeks have been not so great. The past week my vision has been very blurry, pain has increased, all day stiffness, lower back pain has been at a steady 8/10, I’ve been in a constant state of nausea. But I have been able to keep food down the last few days so woop woop! Chewing has been hard and my face hurts. I kind of feel like someone punched me in the eye a few times.

School: starting up again in March. I have enjoyed this brief break!!

Fitness classes: I have dropped down to teaching two classes a week and that is really all my body can take right now. It saddens me but I have to accept this is where I am right now.

Medical: I was take Celebrex but gained a lot of weight really fast and it made my legs feel heavy. Make no mistake when the pain becomes awful (by my standards) I will take one. As many of you know my rheumatologist/ pain specialist was found guilty of inappropriate conduct of over 20 women…….ugh! He knew he was guilty and could have said something. He left a lot of people stranded. Anyway I have been without a doctor since October. Well, I finally got in to see one! My appointment is at the end of February, Praise God!!! He is suppose to be really good with fibro and offers things such as water therapy, pain therapy, needling and of course the shots! I never thought I would miss those horrible shots but Lawd Jezus shoot me up!! I am sleeping more but feeling less rested. I’m not sure why? My multi-vitamins and spark by Advocare (which I love) is NOT working.

Work: equals stress and motivation to keep going to school and have my own! That is all!

Life: overall my life is amazing!! I am learning more about me daily! Becoming closer with God, my family and friends. I’m forming healthy relationships and letting go of toxic ones. My classes are full of loyal ladies and I am told weekly how awesome I am at what I do (flips hair..I know right). HaHa. Seriously, I still love what I do. I am elated at watching myself grow and I love the me I am becoming!!

The Turn Up: Honestly ya’ll, I don’t even know. Where to begin or what to do. So I am just praying. I do know that

“he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake”

                                                                                                                  – Psalm 23:3 NIV

Before I go I do want to share one of the messages God gave me this week. As I was riding to work fighting back the tears, because ya’ll know how I feel about myself crying, God said “Don’t be afraid to be the lamb because you’ve got a lion behind you”! YALLLLLLLLLLL!!! If you didn’t catch that let me break it down for you. I am the lamb. The weaker more meek and smaller animal.  God is the ferocious, handle all things, king of the jungle, strong and mighty lion. I am getting happy typing it! So what I took from that is that it’s ok for me to be weaker, for me to cry and not be mighty because baby I have The almighty, all knowing, healing, waymaking, turning it around, restoring, mind clearing, peace giving and body healing God behind me!!!! OHHHHH He is so good!!!!

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Shoot Me Up!

Hello F4 Tribe!!!

How are you all? I feel like you should updated on your lives too.

Let’s just dive right in!

In the last post I was having sever nausea, my gums ached and my teeth felt like they were coming out. Well all of these problems are still here 🤷🏾‍♀️ but I did go to the doctor!

Monday:

Even though I was not feeling my best I taught my fitness class tonight….bad idea. I was ok, well I was making it, until the next to the last song. I hit a squat and I felt a rip that seemed to go across my bum. Jesus!!! I pushed through class and made it home. While in bed, not sleeping, I realized my butt has not hurt me since the last shot. At that moment I knew I was getting another injection! My thoughts were

I have no time to be down. I already can’t eat. My body keeps having random shake downs where I feel like it’s trying to shut down. AND one of my besties is getting engaged Wednesday in Birmingham….. I have to be there. And I mean just really I want some popcorn with cheese or some chicken or anything!!! Yep I’m calling the doctor

Tuesday:

I limped into work and made the call. Surprisingly they had an opening @2:20 that afternoon! Now do you remember me talking about how incredibly long it takes at this dr???? Hours on top of hours!!! So instead of me taking off I just went when I got off @3:40. I still waited til 6 to be seen. Yes that’s 4hrs from my appt time!

Let’s get down to the nitty gritty!

I told the dr what my symptoms were…again. Why do we have to tell the person that makes the appointments, the vitals nurse, the nurse that comes in to say “he’ll be right with you” and THEN the doctor! Geez! Seems like there should be a better system or at least sticky notes!!! Anyway I digress…

1. Face feels like it’s caving in at random times. Both sides. Above and below eyes.

2. All of my teeth feel like they may come out. Jaw is locking up.

3. Severe burning/ripping pain across my butt.

4. Bursas on hips are back

5. Cyst on wrist that’s keeping me from making a fist

6. Stomach issues. Feeling full/ bloated all the time. Very gassy. Not being able to eat or drink a full protein shake.

7. Tramadol has become aversive. It last way longer than 8hours although the pain comes back around hour 3. Then I’m left feeling yuck until it wears off.

8. I’ve slept 3 hours and 46 minutes in 3 days

So after discussing each in depth here is what we decided:

1. He had me take a deep breath in through my nose. It sounded clear to me. He said it’s allergies 🤷🏾‍♀️ I don’t agree!

2. I can do an all liquid diet for 10 days or get cortisone injections….. IN MY FACE!!

3/4. Bursitis is back. Cortisone shots or rest for 2 weeks

5. Wear a brace… No! I’m not doing that

6. He thinks it’s Irritable Bowel Syndrome. And I have irritated my upper intestines but I feel like it irritated me! Take stool softener and it should go away….. we shall see

7. He prescribed what’s about the only drug left without me being admitted to the hospital… Percocet. I’m not taking that!!

8. He prescribed another sleep med… probably not taking that either!

I did remind him that I have come off of everything except naproxen when the pain is unbearable. It’s not working but hey whatever! Stay focused!! I also let him know I would take the prescriptions but was 80% sure I would not be taking them. I don’t want that crap in my body! He said he understood and gave me the scripts. Who cares about killing trees 🌲?

Here’s the educational slash gross part. If you are squeamish this is where you stop reading!!! 🛑 🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑🛑

So I received 4 cortisone shots varying in dosage and needle size. Two in my TMJ and two in the bursas close to my sciatic nerve.

What is Cortisone:

A type of medication that treats a wide variety of conditions, mainly by suppressing inflammation. Shots of cortisone are used to treat a range of conditions, including bursitis, gout, acne cysts and nodules, tendonitis, and different types of arthritis.

What is TMJ:

Temporomandibular joint (TMJ) syndrome is a disorder of the jaw muscles and nerves caused by injury or inflammation to the temporomandibular joint. The temporomandibular joint is the connection between the jawbone and the skull. The injured or inflamed temporomandibular joint leads to pain with chewing, clicking, crackling, and popping of the jaw; swelling on the sides of the face; nerve inflammation; headaches, including migraines; tooth grinding (bruxism); Eustachian tube dysfunction; and sometimes dislocation of the temporomandibular joint. Temporomandibular joint syndrome is also known as temporomandibular joint disorder.

https://youtu.be/cBwGjV0gECE

The sciatic nerve is the longest nerve in your body. … The most distinctive sign of sciatica is pain that radiates from your lower back into the back or side or your legs. It can range from a mild ache to sharp, severe pain. You can also get numbness, tingling, and weakness in your leg or foot.

https://youtu.be/biSCYrFXqxk

Recovery:

Jaw: liquid diet for 10 days or soft food

Butt: relax for 4-5 days

Both will be sore and still hurt until possibly the weekend.

Wednesday:

I took off of work today so I can relax. I’ve been in bed all day. Tonight I am going to Birmingham for a close friends surprise engagement. I’m a little nervous about the drive because I’m not feeling well.

The engagement was amazing! Seeing her face was priceless and so worth the drive. I’m at home in the bed. I have to return to work tomorrow.

Thursday:

Today has been the longest roughest day I have had. I am tired and my body is too. I was supposed to take pictures for a flyer but it rained and that was all! I cancelled my fitness class tonight too. Even though my mind is ready my body just isn’t up for it. It’s 8pm and I’m in the bed. Thank God I made it through the day.

Friday:

It’s Friday and today I can open my mouth a little when I talk. Doesn’t look weird anymore!!! I’m sitting on a heating pad all day at work. It’s cold in my building and it’s rainy outside….. my body feels like it’s going to explode! And I’m nauseated. So as of right now I feel exactly like I did before I went to the doctor. But I am hopeful that this will pass. Today I am going to try and get my pictures done for the flyer. That is all I have planned.

This weekend:

All should be relaxing. I pray nothing comes up.

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